I shared this picture on Facebook the other day.
Now looking at it, while I love those pictures. And I am beyond proud of the progress hubby has made, I really think it makes it look like everything is really ok.
And everything is NOT ok.
The man I said goodbye to 5months ago is not the man that came back. While I am thankful for the glimpses of him that I get, there is no question that the person that left me is not who returned.
I am sad that out daughter will never know the person that I chose to raise a family with.
I am more sad that our son spent this Christmas visit asking me why daddy is acting this way and when he will be all better. I have no answer for him. The truth is we do not know how much better he will get.
So although there is much to be thankful for, and there has been so much healing that has taken place in the last few months, it is obvious that our lives have changed forever, our family has changed forever. And it will be a long while before everything is ok again.